spin backward, spin forward, and in Reverse

I'm just sitting here wondering about myself,
a Passionate Teacher, who seeks one Thing
more than any other and that is Truth.
So yes I am a Difficult One, Heart-
of-a-Poet, give me a Break. Sleeping
Beauty, come take a Look: Atypical
autistic, call me Whatever. My wheels
spin backward, spin forward, and in Reverse.
The humming is Me and My Mechanics.
I'm actually trying my Hardest not
to Stand out for I'm sure I'm Transparent
since I'm socially awkward and need my Space.
This Thin skin of Mine was not my Decision.
I never chose to be Different but am.